Saturday, September 27, 2008

On Mac Trucks and Other Large Vehicles

Have you ever felt like you've been hit by a Mac Truck, but you can't be sure... and the fact that you can't be sure just makes you a little more convinced that it probably did happen? Well, that's where I am right now.

Since I last updated, I've gone through a whirlwind adventure of ... um... sugar and shit? With my health questionable, I had a rough go of studying. I did get a massage, which helped a bit with the migraines. That was a nice relief.

I went to ND. Studied on the drive down. Hit South Bend (official No-Study zone), went to dinner with my friends, had a beer, and fainted again. (Vito, I'm so so so sorry for freaking you out). Apparently, my blood pressure and heart rate were so low that sitting in a car for 8+ hours, being a little dehydrated, having a bit of a low blood sugar moment, and feeling like I'm going to be sick adds up to fainting as well. This has led to the conclusion that it's vaso-vagal and probably a relic of last years erosive gastritis. Couple that with the running I was on a break from and I just hit the floor. I really need to be careful about these things. The worst bit was that we were out at a bar. Anywhere else and I'd have laid down until the sensation passed. No such luck, and I still wound up on the floor. Boo.

ND beat the tar out of Michigan. Woot! It was pouring in the morning until nearly 10. This dampened the tailgate spirit a bit, but it was still a fun morning. I got hang out with the Dillon guys and co., and my little brother (who came down from Ann Arbor to relish in the Wolverine defeat) and his friend Rico (a scrawny, blond, white kid... where did the name Rico come from? no clue). Then it cleared up and we had a dry 1st half... highlighted by paratroopers delivering the game ball, two Michigan fumbles on successive kick returns that led to a 17-0 score at the half. Then the skies opened. I blame the Michigan band for playing *Nsync, 98 degrees, and Backstreet Boys... ND slugged back with a bit of Bon Jovi, a little more appropriate, I'd say. The entire 2nd half was drenching rains. But I still enjoyed it. PS: my seats were absolutely unbeatable (Thank you dad!).

Sunday was an early morning drive in the rain back to MN. I wasn't feeling at the top of my game, but I studied on the way back, all afternoon, all night, and then Mon as well. Tues was the day before D-day, so I did minimal studying that day and tried to relax. Now, seeing a funny movie would be a great way to relax, but the movie I wanted to see had been bumped for a preview of a crappy movie and I had to change plans at the last minute. So, Bill and I saw Bangkok Dangerous... There are no words. I had invasive thoughts about that movie during my Step.

Took the step on Wed. No clue how it went. Really... No idea at all.

Tried to lay low on the last few days I had in MN. I went out with Hayes, met her boy (which was fun to do... I like having faces to go with names). Went to the ND v. MichState game watch and ran into Michael Rossman (haven't seen the kid in ages!) so while the game wasn't great, the game watch was a good time. Went home to a nice, late, Larkin Family Dinner... went until midnight... crazy. And met Garin for coffee the next day (and I hadn't seen her in a long time either). Quote of that conversation: "Now, I don't know how many trannies do this, but..." Hilarious!

I sort of hit the ground at a rough stumble in Ireland on Tuesday the 23rd. This was in part due to general disorientation at coming home after being home for 3 months... it was a little weird. But probably a little more to do with my 9:30pm flight out of JFK was delayed and ended up taking off at 12:30am, they didn't turn off the lights on the flight, and served dinner an hour into the flight... I mean, really? So I had just about the worst jet lag in recent history.

Orientation was slow, brutal and dirty. I found out just how challenging Med/Surg is going to be (and the 30 tests that accompany it). Plus, I'm not down in Kilkenny until Monday week because I'm in Beaumont doing this special one week thing about emergency med. It sounds like a cool course, but I wasn't expecting it, or expecting to do it right away. It's just nuts. I completed my BLS again this morning (CPR and Heart Saver). My instructor was the saving grace of the day... Kept me and Cara laughing pretty much the whole time. I think this year should be great, but at the moment I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. But, my floor still looks like my suitcase vomited, so that's probably a bit of the problem.

Tomorrow I start studying. Monday I start work. So today, I pissed around all afternoon. Yay!

On a side note: Congrats to Mary who is graduating (finally) this weekend from Oxford for all that Masters work she did before RCSI.

Marathon:
So, it's up in the air. I need to run this week, get my legs back, and the final day to register for the marathon is Oct 6th (for the 27th). I go back and forth on it. We'll see... that's all I can say.


Summer Soundtrack:
  1. Life in a Nutshell - Barenaked Ladies
  2. Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
  3. How Far We've Come - Matchbox Twenty
  4. In Da Club - 50 cent
  5. Handlebars - Flobots
  6. When I Grow Up - Pussycay Dolls
  7. Time to Pretend - MGMT
  8. Vampire Weekend - A-Punk
  9. Troublemaker - Weezer
  10. Viva la Vida - Coldplay
  11. Paper Planes - M.I.A
  12. Breathe, Stretch, Shake - Mase (this is for attitude going into the USMLE)
  13. Chelsea Dagger - The Fratellis (this is for attitude when the USMLE was done)
  14. Her Eyes - Pat Monahan (this was just about the sweetest dedication I've ever gotten... Totally blushing over this one. Thank you)
  15. Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day (The closer of this list... so sad... but appropriate. Here's to the end of the summer and the end of the summer play list. It's been a kick. And I will keep this play list on my itunes in memory of the summer that was what it's been)

Sunday, September 7, 2008

T-minus 10 days

This week started strong and wound up in the gutter. After Wednesday, the only time I felt reasonably ok was during the ND football game on Sat (and then, it had nothing to do with what I was watching on the big screen). I have, unfortunately, come down with something of a late summer flu... which set off a series of migraines... which, because of the low-grade fever and aches, don't seem to respond to my normal anti-migraine action... which makes it really hard to read... which means that studying has been near impossible... And that I've been feeling like crap.

I've decided to handle this with the grace and poise of a sick 5 year old and just stay in bed and pout. Plus, I've scheduled a deep tissue massage for tomorrow to help ward off further migraines. So... shit rolls downhill, and this stupid little flu has affected my major summer efforts.

Marathon Week #11: 9/1-9/7
After a light week last week, I attacked this week to hit every run, and I was doing really well. I felt great after the 5 mile runs, and actually really good after 10 miles. This is a little inpart to the change in weather that brought the 6am temp down to 50. BUT... after my run and lift on Thursday, I came down with a fever, malaise, and myalgias. (look at me talk med-jibberish) Friday is my day off, so I did some lite stretching, but I really crashed friday mid-day. That meant no early morning on Sat, no 10 miles on Sat, and certainly no 20 miles today. I was feeling much much better today, but crashed at about 3pm. I'm going to do a light cross train tomorrow, maybe a little lifting and decide if I'm going to run on Tuesday based on how I feel after the massage.

USMLE Update:
Again, studied strong Mon-Thurs... then came the migraines which mean blurry vision. Anyway, I'm pretty much gearing up to take this test. I don't feel like I'm 100% prepared, but I don't think I'll ever be. But I feel like I'm preparing to take this test rather than trying to not fail. It's a much better place to be than I was before.

Summer Soundtrack:
  1. Life in a Nutshell - Barenaked Ladies
  2. Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
  3. How Far We've Come - Matchbox Twenty
  4. In Da Club - 50 cent
  5. Handlebars - Flobots
  6. When I Grow Up - Pussycay Dolls
  7. Time to Pretend - MGMT
  8. Vampire Weekend - A-Punk
  9. Troublemaker - Weezer
  10. Viva la Vida - Coldplay
  11. Paper Planes - M.I.A (Great song... note to self: don't cruise around downtown Mpls while the convention is going on and the cops are out with this blasting from the car... Cops don't like the sound of gunshots.)

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Light at the end of the tunnel

Is it the end? ...or is it an oncoming train?

Things are still all up and down. I'm going through more mood swings than a pregnant woman (and no! I'm not pregnant). At the moment, I just want this disaster to be over. I'm trying to break up my study days (and I'm up to about 9 hours of studying each day) with some running and maybe an hour of mindless tv (gotta love CSI-Vegas and the Closer for that). Plus, I'm isolating myself in a soundless room for about 3 straight hours so I can get used to working in boredom. That's about my all that's going on in my life.

I go out for a drink every now and then with friends to try and remind myself to be normal and socialized... it works... sort of. But I have my calendar set for the rest of the summer to get things taken care of.

My cousin Kate (who was married at the end of June) emailed pictures from the event. I have two new fave picts from it:
I look so short! (and the sad part is, I'm wearing 3 inch heels)... Oh well. Don't my brothers look classy? I think that second pict looks like something out of a GQ magazine... at least Joe does. Mike looks like he probably has a gun and is threatening someone who made a crass comment. But they're great picts.

In other news, Brent got engaged! So uber congrats to Brent and Kate!!!

Marathon Week #10: 8/25-8/31
I decided to take a light week on the running to refresh myself. I was really burning out energy-wise, and I think I needed the break. I have one tough week next week, then a light week before the USMLE. I'll still have a month when I get back to Dublin to tighten up my training and decide if the marathon is going to happen. I think if the USMLE is done, it'll be a lot easier... Hm... a marathon... easy... I'm sick.

USMLE Update:
After some massive panicking, I've spoken with some people that calmed me down. My test is set for the 17th of Sept, which is just about the last feasible day before I leave for Dublin (Sept 22). I think I want to do this and be done. I keep freaking out though. I'm not sure if I'm more scared of failing or of doing well enough to just pass and being stuck with a weak score. But... I think I can get around a weaker score with Step 2 and my interviews... I hope. I don't think it would behove me to try and take this at Christmas. *Sigh* I just want to be a good doctor. And part of me is resistant to the idea that I need to know all of this crap to do that. I know it's another hoop... but it's high, and it's on fire... I'm sick of jumping through hoops. Here's to two more weeks of studying.

Summer Soundtrack:
  1. Life in a Nutshell - Barenaked Ladies
  2. Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
  3. How Far We've Come - Matchbox Twenty
  4. In Da Club - 50 cent
  5. Handlebars - Flobots
  6. When I Grow Up - Pussycay Dolls
  7. Time to Pretend - MGMT
  8. Vampire Weekend - A-Punk
  9. Troublemaker - Weezer
  10. Viva la Vida - Coldplay (I'm totally addicted to this song. I just love it, and it's so mellowdramatic)